Dream

J came to me in a dream this morning…

He was being his usual self - cheeky and being silly. J was trying to cheer me up and did his silly dance for me to watch. I was laughing and then of course I told him : You need to stop it, because you are going to make me cry… J proceed to show me this cheeky smile and stuck his tongue out and wink at me.

And I woke up… bawling my eyes out…my morning was completely ruined.

I cried and felt just like the day after he left me… I couldn’t hold it in.

It felt like I’ve lost him all over again. It was a cruel joke.

I love that I saw him in my dreams but waking up and returning to my reality was painful.

I miss J…